Midterm exam are around the corner. I hate to say this but I'm not studying at all. I DON'T :/ I just, am not the type to study so early before the exam because I know I forget easily. So I prefer studying last minute. Now, I see some of my friends are not online anymore because of S.P.M. I feel sort of ashame of myself. Keep asking myself when am I going study ! WHEN. I seriously hate the way I am now but I'm too stubborn to change. I don't easily change ._. Hmm. So far, relationships are good. Its just, I give 40% of my effort only :) Still, school is important. I love school. Is where I study hard and party after school. I don't see any point there. My life is getting so much better now. I'm glad it is. I love my life. Wait, am I here to drag this longer about 'I love my life thingy' Lord. So pathetic. Actually, what I'm trying to say here is, I hate losing a friend just because they got a new GF/BF. Like what the fuck man? When you were so miserable, you call me all the time. And now, you have her. You just toss your friend away? Is that how you repay someone. I don't expect any repayment or whatsoever but as a good friend, is that necessary? Forgetting all the effort I put to make you happy. I'm just disappointed. VERY disappointed. Words can't describe. Whatever it is, hope your happy. STILL. I'm soo disappointed :/ how could you change this much for a girl ?! I don't know. I just disagree you being with her. She hurt you so much and.. urgh, whatever. Your choice, not mine. Byee ._.