HunnyBunny ♡

Sometimes, I wish I was strong enough to face the truth that I am waiting for something that is unsure. I wish I can I can break this circle of confusion and build something firm. I guess I appreciated your effort of teaching me how to stand firm on my ground. I wish I could watch you grow into a man ^^ and be proud to see you happy. I just wish we could still be together and build our future but time insist us. So instead YOU watch me fall and cry, I want YOU to see me happy if that's the thing that makes you strong :') Sometimes I forced to much on time to get back with you. But I know, destiny one day will show us what we are meant to be. This word >> kiss me << still remember this? yeah, it's crystal clear in my head until today. I wanted to cry till there's no more tears left but for what? If I cry, things won't come back to normal. I rather wait and see what does time have for the both of us :) People say I'm crazy and told me to stop waiting if things are unsure. But hey ! This is the reason why I waited because I want to know if it is sure. I have my family support. They wanted you to be a part of me because YOU MADE ME WHOLE. I'm proud that my family likes you and they also know our situation. But hey, same thing. I can wait :)

I am very confuse now. But I won't let things drown me. I know I can stand firm and watch things go by. This is what it is suppose to be. I wanted to pull you out of all this misery. But how? Before I pull you out, I have to pull myself out first. You're the weak type and the emotional type :D While I'm the crazy and tough type ( yea RIGHT ! ) XD Sometimes, I appear to be strong in front of the crowd. I am proud that I'm strong. But when I'm with you, I am just weak and effortless. You were there, kissing me, hugging me, touching me and giving me all your love. I can still feel those fingers running through my hair. That touch that simply tickles my heart. That hug that warms me up. I am WHOLE because of you. I am me because of you. I learned how to love because of you. You are just so special. Very special in my eyes. Even though I'm with another man, you just don't know that I am thinking of you. Laughing with another man, simply reminds me of what we had back in time. I still remember those words of care >> FINISH ALL YOUR FOOD <<
Yesterday was 26 of August. I was on my bed playing with the crocodile you once lay your head on. I remember every single specific moments we had when we were together. Sometimes, I questioned myself. Why are you with another man? I know I'm stupid to take this step of breaking people's heart. But I have to find something to distract me from being sad. In easier words, I'm making a man your substitute. Someone who can help me to move on. I know it's bad and you would be cursing me now. But I just can't stand being sad and effortless. Day and night those memories haunts me. I cried every time I'm alone. I walk under rain and when my friends says don't. I don't give a damn ! Walking under the rain simply tells me of how wonderful nature can be, just like us :') We were beautiful together but like nature. It is not always beautiful. I guess this is our rough time and maybe time will show us what are we supposed to be.

Now, I am here in my time and life moving on. I could feel my future and my journey of adult are coming ahead of me. One step after this darn SPM thing. I can decide so much about us, my life and where I stand now. I vowed once to you to be a devoted wife XD urr, I think it will happen? HA HA HA ! Don't worry, time will tell. I won't back down that easily :)

P/S : I LOVE YOU :)