HunnyBunny ♡

NOW

It was once the happiest thing ever happen in life. The kiss, the hug, the lips, the smile and the talks. Now it's all gone in one flash. I wonder, do I have the strength to be able to return all that? Will he sacrifice to return all of that. Or will he just sit back and let things stray away. I wonder. Being the happiest person is not the wrong thing but somehow envy comes alive in short time. Everything was so good and because of one thing, everything falls apart. I must pick it up and fix it back. Now, I am that old girl who will never smile for free. I hate to go back there but the fact that things are this way. I became that girl who once hated being alive and just wish to die. The girl who would dare to try to die. That girl is now alive in me. Heart that was once so colorful and change for the sake of love. But now? Love is there, just a pinch of it. But still, that hatred in me is still strong. I wonder if things will return to the way it was before, the love, the smile and the happiness, will my heart be as colorful as before? or will it stayed the same. My smile is now rotten away, my laughs is just a cry in it. My walk and talks are just grins and sobs. Now everything is so dark, can I find my way out? I once trust the voice that always gives me the rush and faith to be strong. But now, must I trust that voice again? the voice that once put my life in death and still brings me back alive. Now it had made me die again, will it bring me to life? I'll wait and see what happens. And as time waits for my return, I will be happy and enjoy life. I was born to be happy and struggle at the same time. I will be strong for this and if it brings me down, I'll still smile and bid you farewell. The last thing I want to happen is to see you smile and see you be successful :) #Iloveyou