HunnyBunny ♡

Mixed up

Seriously, I've been feeling down now and then. I am not that cheerful funny and silly girl people use to see me. I am just one girl looking for someone to love. Apparently, I just broke up last year and things weren't that easy anymore between us. What happen to our friendship? It was once so nice then after these things going around, we just lost it. I know it was my fault for not appreciating you. But I still do love you. Whenever I see lovers hanging around, I remember how sweet kids we used to be. You make me smile by buying me lollipop. You try to sing to make me laugh. You swift your finger around my hair to show me that you truly love me. Always been there to support me and had my back for a long time. We've been together for 2 years and things weren't always happy. After our 1 year and 8th month anniversary. We fought :x un-explainable situation. After that moment, I realize something had change and it was US who changed. We grow up and became mature and there's some things we take it down seriously but I was stupid for not noticing it. And now, I am just one lonely girl moving on with life full of sadness, fake happiness and hopeless heart.

>>> moving on to future
I really do like you. I want to take these to the next step. But you are having your big exam and me hanging around you is just a distraction. I added you, you commented on my wall and its something unexpected. Chatting non stop for days and days. I go around madly thinking of you. Sighing alone thinking whether you feel the way as I do. But wait, are you? I don't wanna look like a fool having my dreams all draw by myself. I want you to have my heart, I know I sound desperate. But trust me, once I saw what's right in front of me and I know you are the one, I'll take all my chances to have you. But you were just the type to silently enjoy your life. How am I able to tell you what's in me. What is worst that, we never face talk or even see each other like those other girls hanging out with you at the canteen. I am awkward when it comes to socialize with people around. I tend to stay away as far as I can and have my dreams silently happening. Expectations on and off, that was just MY dreams weren't full filled. Maybe you don't understand my feeling or do not want to accept me. Its okay, I'm not worthy enough to have you. I guess you still have feelings for your ex and maybe I am just that third party. Even though I feel like you were giving me signs that you like me but I think it was just a dream that I draw myself without you in it. I guess from now on I should keep my expectations low of guard. # I am just a fool who is hungry for your love. worthless girl should be avoided. You don't have to start avoiding me because I just started avoiding you. Bye